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Have you ever been Inlove? Many people will say yes
Have you been hurt before? most of the answer will be yes a lot of times.
when we first fall inlove we, we dream of being inlove for a lifetime, we never thought about pain only hapiness, thats why they used to say its nice to ne inlove, well is it reallt nice to be inlove? In some ways of course it is, wearing a smile everyday, having the twinkle in your eyes, all of it when your inlove, notheing matters to you at all and no one matters to you except the one you love but we forgot that when we fall inlove there always pain of being hurt in any circumstances. But of course we are inlove and sometimes Blindly Inlove so we bare anything, we bare the pain and try to work out everything to kep the feeling as it was before butnow your inlove but theres sadness in your face, your inlove and yet theres a tears in your eyes. When we get hurt so bad by falling inlove maybe not once but rather twice thats then we open our eyes not to give it all the love we had and sometimes we even curse of being inlove because we are afraid of the pain, afraid to get hurt again, afraid to trust once more.But there are times we dont want to let go, we let our self suffer and we make them suffer by not letting go but the thing is when you dont let go you will never had a chance of meeting the right one and if we dont try again we’ll miss the chance of having the right one.
many things had change now, before things was so easy but i cant say that before not until now, when i was in college, i thought anatomy is hard together with the drugs and solution, i thought exams making me sick and the projects and ncp, well as i finished college and had my profession,then i realized there are more harder things in life rather than anatomy exams and ncp,as life get so complicated when your getting matured, more responsibilities to your life, not a homework but with your family, friends and love ones, there are times that you had to make a tough decisions in which your not exactly sure whether your right or wrong,but instead you have to the a risk,not all people can understand what your decisions was but its not about them, its about you on what you think was right for you and your family and love ones not the gossipers around you.
life is different now for me, more matured and more responsibilities, sometimes i just miss my schooldays, the best was my college day,that was one of the best chapter of my life, new friends that i still have right now, learning how to fall inlove and learnd hoe to mend a broken heart, when to let go and when to hold on for a dreams..challenges that makes me strong enough, but now i realized and learned a lot of things maybe not all the things i need to learned but somehow it makes me survived in a happy life as i always believed that life experienced is a never ending learnings till your last breath…
it was dark and raining when i was walking in the streets, i saw some kids playing in the rain, i saw some beggar chilling on the streets, some of them are family with a baby, sad to say,life is not that fair, for a simple mind of kids they play under the rain, they dream for a perpect life, they dreamed for a perfect world… dreams that when they grow up they will realize that it is different,that theres no such thing as perfect, dream that will slowly vanish…its funny how the children see life and the world outside, sometimes i thought why cant everybody just think like a kid, they had a fight but after an hour they forget, they get hurt and cry but after that again they forget, life for them was not complicated, life for them was certain… but as you see the reality, life is not as simple the way the children dream of..its complicated, life in this world is uncertain, no fairytales, no super heroes,.. sometimes its just your self you can depend on, because everything change no matter how yopu planned it, no matter how you tried to make it happen the way you want it to be, but sometimes there is luck, who knows what will gonna happen,its not bad to wish, nor to dream and hope but all im trying to say is that life is uncertain,you’ll never know whats next, you’ll never know what your going to missed and what you haved let go, but just the make the most of your everyday life, you cant tell what will be the future but yes its nice to dream and plan somehow but just dont expect too much,life on earth is not a fairy tale, it doesnt always have a happy ending, expect for the best but prepare for the worst so in your battlefield you still have the chance to stand up though you’ve lost.
"letting go" is the hardest thing that always hard to do in life coz sometimes you tend to keep it as long as you can keep it, who would ever want to give away the very important things in her life, who would ever want to leave the most special person in your life, "no one". But theres a bitter fact in our life that we must understand, there are questions that we must answer and often times we knew the answer and so we avoid the question, we sometimes scared to know the truth specially accepting the truth…truth can be very painful at times, it will break our heart, it can make us misserable but avoiding the truth in our life can even make us more misserable, Acceptance almost the same as letting go, answering the questions the we are avoiding can make us realize the truth that we must accept..and when we accept that truth then it will prepare us on how to let go and move on.
no one ever want to let go of something important, someone so special but if letting go will make our future more even brighter and clear, will make us happy than we are right now, if letting go can make others happy though it will make us lonely then why not let go,lets try to see the brighter side of letting go and not the painful side because we can not change the fact that its so hard to let go but we can move on and make another step in our lives looking forward to a life that is much better after we let go…
letting go is not an easy thing to do, for the fact that its so hard, it is painful it is sad, it breaks our heart and what we need is a courage to accept things and to change things for a better one, im not saying this not beacuse its just easy to say but because i been through this letting go a couple of times, and im sharing to the readers what i haved learned from this letting go.. because i let go having the feeling that i can not move on, but i can say right now that i did the right thing of letting go because i had the much better one right now…
i cant believe that i am now here in england of all the places in earth i never thought of travelling,and whou would ever thought i’ll be inlove with a white guy, funny how it seems all the things in my life that im not expecting is what is happening in my life right now.
england! what a lovely place with lots of castles and courts and lovely garden, the place that i just used to saw in a movie, in a fairytale but it is now infront of my eyes, so real that i can touch, that i can smell the flowers and the soft cool breeze touches to my face, it is now for real..
the man who used to tell me that he love me,the man who makes me smile and makes me feel i was someone special the man who always appreciate and see the beauty of me,the man man who is so patient in waiting for me is the same man that i dont want to see before but his also the man i want to spend my life with right now,the man who captured my heart,a man who is everything for me, xxx
in life nothing is for sure,everything change,everything is uncertain,.there are question that was left unanswered and sometimes no matter how you try to make things work out the way you want it to be,it sometimes not..
